I was checking my dA today and I had a response to my song, "William Shatner Raped Me" from Basically telling me what a horrible person I am for writing a song using the word "rape".

Have you ever noticed that at age 14, a lot of kids think they know everything; when in actuality they know absolutely nothing. I replied to her and told her what I thought of her comment. Different people cope with different things in different ways. I cope with a lot of things through my writing. Sometimes I take a very dark humoristic approach.

Maybe when you grow up, , you will understand how different people handle events in their lives and learn to shut the fuck up and mind your own business.

I had nose surgery on the 14th to correct a deviated septum and to remove bone spurs. I woke up in the worst pain I had ever been in. I am still recovering from the operation right now and it will take me a while.

My boyfriend told me that he doesn't want a long term relationship. He wants to be just best friends. At first I was devastated. I saw myself buying a house with this man and spending the rest of my life with him. We just have so much in common and he makes me so happy. But once the shock resided, I realized that I love him but I am not in love with him. I would rather be his friend than to not have him in my life. So I started trying out the friends thing. It is such a huge weight off my shoulders. I guess you can compare it to letting your get out after sucking it in for so long. There are no romantic pretenses so we can be 100% real with each other. I am truly enjoying the new level of closeness and intimacy we are sharing. Who knows, maybe someday we will find that a relationship is right for us. I guess it is possible to be soul mates but not be romantically involved.

I have finished my business plan for my own clothing store. I am hoping to have it opened next year. Lets keep our fingers crossed!

Outcast
[] You don't have very many friends.
[] Often times, teachers forget your name.
[] You were always picked last for kickball.
[] You don't like to talk a lot. (not with strangers)
[] You tend to avoid mass social activities.
[] You don't participate in any extracurricular activities.
[x] All you wish for is to move away or get a fresh start. []
[x] Your friends have blown you off before.
[x] You sit alone in most of your classes.
[x ] You have a feeling that once you leave high school or college, nobody is going to remember you.
[] You hold interest in activities that other people find strange.
[] People don't find you friendly.
[ ] You hold extreme hate towards another high school stereotype.
[ ] You eat alone at lunch.
Total = 4

Party Girl/Boy
[] Lets face it: you like to party.
[] You party every other weekend.
[ ] ...Or every weekend?
[ ] You've been going to frat house parties since early high school.
[ ] You're the defending beer bong champion.
[ ] You know the best hook-ups in the state... world.
[ ] Everybody who's anybody goes to the same parties you go to.
[x ] You've hooked up at parties.
[x] You spend time getting ready for parties.
[ ] You've passed out from being too drunk.
[ ] You've partied all night.
[ ] You've snuck out of the house to party.
[ x] Actually, your parents really don't care if you party or not.
[x] You're pretty much nocturnal.
[] You like to go clubbing.
[ ] You and your friends always party hop.
[] You've crashed a party before.
[ ] One way or another, you've wound up naked in front of everybody at a party.
[ ] You've thrown up from drinking too much.
[x] You've done something that you regret at a party.
[x] You can dance.
[x] You're friends with a lot of people older than you.

Total = 7

Scene Kid
[] You know what sXe and hXc actually mean.
[] You have a obsession with dinosaurs, robots, and Pokemon.
[ ] You idolize Jeffree Starr
[] People have called you scene before.
[ ] You spend at least an hour getting ready to take pictures of yourself for your myspace.
[ ] You have a mirror pic.
[x] You listen to bands that most people have never heard of. (
[x] You enjoy going to shows.
[ ] You only go to shows for the sake of going to shows, not the music.
[] Your hair is multicolored.
[] You accessorize your hair with kiddie barrettes and bows.
[x] Fashion is one of the most important things that define you.
[] You mosh.
[x] You often mix vintage with modern.
[ ] Your myspace picture captions are sad lyrics to sad songs.
[ ] All of your friends are scene.
[x] You don't know many of the people on your friends list in person.
[] You take angled pictures of yourself.
[x] You enjoy photography.
Total = 6

Prep
[ ] You pop the collar.
[ ] You won't go near the "goths".
[x] You own at least one thing from a designer store.
[x ] You are very clean cut.
[ x] You are squeamish.
[ x] People have called you preppy before.
[ x] You never leave the house without putting on cologne/perfume.
[ ] You have a lot of money.
[ x] You know who LC is.
[ ] You watch shows like The OC, The Real World, The Hills, and Laguna Beach.
[ ] One favorite stores are Abercrombie & Fitch or American Eagle Outfitters.
[ x] You're afraid to set foot into Hot Topic.
[ ] [Girls] You carry a purse wherever you go.
[x] You need to wake up at least an hour before school so you can get ready.
[ ] [Girls] You do not leave the house without make up.
[x] You are content overall with how your life is going.
Total = 9

Band Geek
[x] You have played an instrument before
[] You still play an instrument.
[ x] You are/were in regular Band.
[ ] You are/were in Jazz Band.
[ ] You are/were in Marching Band.
[ ] You've never dated anybody outside of Band.
[] Most of your friends are in band.
[ ] The band room/band hall is your second home.
[x] You enjoy listening to Classical music on occasion.
[ ] You aspire to be a Drum Major.
[ ] You've made out with somebody on a Band bus or at a Band competition.
[ ] You have trouble getting your non-band friends to go near the band room.
[] Band is your favorite class.
[ ] You have been to band camp.
[ ] You walk in step with all your friends.
[ ] You talk about band constantly.
[ ] You know that American Pie has got it all wrong.
[x ] You hate rap music.
[ ] Marching Season is your favorite time of year.
[x ] When you go to football games, you don't really pay attention to the game itself.
[ ] Your favorite jokes are band jokes.
[x ] You know it's not about the bloods and the crips: it's the brass and the woodwinds.
Total = 5

Thespian
[x] You have seen in a school play.
[x] You have seen a Broadway musical
[x] You like to act.
[x] You have participated in a school play.
[ ] You have participated in a play outside of school.
[ ] You have gone to the Thespian Conference.
[] You get ticked off when people make that thespian, "Did you say lesbian?" joke.
[ ] You have done tech.
[ ] You know that you cannot touch anybody else's props.
[ ] You have played in the pit orchestra for a musical.
[ ] You have been to a cast party.
[ ] You are in a thespian troupe.
[] You often sing show tunes at the top of your lungs.
[ ] You know who Idina Menzel and Johnathan Larson are.
[ ] At one point in your life, you were obsessed with RENT.
[ ] You do not have a personal bubble.
[x] You actually understand Shakespeare.
[] You know how to put on stage make up.
[ x] You have been a lead.
[] You met a lot of your better friends through theatre.
Total = 6

Overachiever
[x] You participate in a lot of extracurricular activities.
[ ] You have a part-time job.
[ ] You have straight As.
[ ] You are in mostly honors/IB/AP classes.
[ ] You do not procrastinate
[ ] You have scored a 5 on an AP test.
[ ] You do not have very much down time.
[ ] You are very organized.
[x ] You always have a thousand things going on at once.
[ x] You are in a relationship.
[ x] You aspire to get into an Ivy League School
[x ] In your extracurriculars, you hold leadership positions.
[ x] You are/were on Student Council.
[ ] You are/were the class president.
[x ] You are/were a class officer.
[ ] You are/were the Salutatorian for your class.
[] You are/were the Valedictorian for your class.
[x ] People have told you that you didn't have a life.
[ ] You are getting/have already received the IB Diploma.
[ ] You cry hysterically when you get anything lower than an A on anything.
Total = 7

Slacker
[ ] Your grades are slipping.
[] You always wait until the last minute to do big projects.
[x] You are an overall procrastinator.
[ ] You tend to do your homework when you're watching TV.
[ ] It takes you ages to turn your job applications in.
[ ] You are often late to school/work.
[ ] You don't turn in a lot of your work.
[] You spend the majority of your time watching TV, the computer or going on Myspace when you could be doing something more productive.
[x ] You sleep in past noon on the weekends and during the summer.
[x] You do not get out of your pajamas unless you have to leave the house.
[x ] You could walk, but you'll just drive.
[x] You have fallen asleep during class before.
[] Friends have called you lazy.
[ ] Life is hard when you lose the remote & you have to walk a million miles over to the TV and change the channel.
[ ] When you hang out with your friends, the majority of your time is spent playing video games or doing something where neither of you have to stand up.
[ ] You have eaten an entire pint of ice cream in one sitting.
[] You have sat through an entire running marathon of a show before.
Total = 5


Goth
[ ] Your wardrobe consists of mostly black things.
[ ] When you have the money, you shop at Hot Topic.
[] You think tattoos are hot.
[] You think odd piercings are hot.
[] You don't get along with your parents.
[x] You have/want to dyed/dye your hair an exotic color.
[ ] You've styled your hair in liberty spikes.
[x] Sometimes you ponder the meaning of life and death.
[x ] You like to write dark poetry.
[ ] You are into S&M.
[ ] You have a pair of over sized black pants.
[] At one point in your life, you liked Foamy, Happy Bunny, Emily the Strange, and the Happy Tree Friends.
[x ] You listen to grunge.
[] You have a messenger bag with buttons up and down the straps.
[ ] You smoke cigarettes.
[ ] You will only date other Goths.
[x] You don't really care what people think about you.
[x] Overly happy people scare you.
[] You like black makeup & nail polish best.
Total = 6

Nerd
[x] You actually study for tests and quizzes.
[x ] You have/HAD straight As.
[ ] You haven't had any luck with the opposite sex.
[ ] You are into WoW, Magic Cards, and Halo
[ ] You over analyze jokes to the point where they aren't funny anymore.
[ ] Your mom buys your clothes for you.
[x] You actually answer the questions in class. (when forced to)
[x ] You sit front row center in all of your classes to get the best learning experience.
[ ] You miss school during the summer.
[ ] You wear your pants at your waist.
[ ] You prefer sweatpants to jeans.
[ ] You have a pocket protector in your shirt with pens and a calculator in it.
[] You let cute boys/girls take advantage of you & copy your homework
([x ] You've noticed some of the spelling and grammar mistakes in this survey.
[ ] People always cheat off you during tests.
[] Your parents pack your lunch for you every day.
[x] You wear/should be wearing glasses.
Total = 6

Garage Band Junkie
[] You play the guitar
[ ] You have been in a garage band before.
[ ] You're still in a garage band.
[] You think your band is going to make it big someday.
[ ] You play shows almost weekly.
[x ] You play the drum set.
[] You sing vocals for a band.
[x] You write your own lyrics.
[ ] You spend hundreds on amps and microphones.
[ ] Your band has a myspace page.
[ ] You have been in multiple garage bands.
[x ] You have changed the name of your band at least twice.
[ ] You have participated in a battle of the bands.
[ ] Your band has been signed.
[] You have taken guitar classes at school.
[ ] You have played at the same venue multiple times.
[x] You would rather make it big than have to go to college.
[x] You have musical talent.
[ ] You have groupies.
[ ] You've made t-shirts and other apparel for your band.
Total = 5

Gangsta
[x ] You actually are black.
[x] You know who the bloods and the crips are.
[ ] You wear doo-rags.
[ ] You actually grew up in the ghetto.
[ ] You can freestyle.
[] You drive down the street blaring your music.
[ ] Your ride is pimped out with stereo boosts.
[] You can break dance.
[] You say "nigga" a lot.
[x] You talk too fast for people to understand you.
[x] You are pretty chill with life.
[ ] You wear your jeans oversized and below your butt.
[ ] Old school rap is the best.
[] You know that Tupac will never die
[ ] You wear bling.
[ ] You have/want a custom grill. – my cooking grill? lol
[ ] You have custom rims on your tires.
[ ] You are actually in a gang.
[ ] You are always big pimpin'.
Total = 4

Emo
[ ] You often have trouble convincing people that you aren't emo.
] You comb your hair over one of your eyes.
[ ] You flip your hair often.
[ ] You have dark-rimmed glasses.
[x] You have hurt your self on purpose.
[ ] If you're a boy, people often complain about your pants being too tight.
[ ] You don't really smile too often.
[ ] You blog often.
[x ] You never smile in pictures.
[ ] You listen to Thursday and/or Sunny Day Real Estate.
[ ] You're too much of a pussy to be a goth.
[ ] You own a lot of band t-shirts.
[ ] You go to a lot of shows.
[] You only go for emo/scene boys and girls.
[ ] It doesn't take very much to make you cry.
[ ] You have played all the Emo Games.
[x] You have worn black eyeliner before.
[ ] You own a bandana which you wear in your hair.
[x] You have dark hair.
[ ] You love the emo song.
[ ] You say stuff like "I feel like my heart's being ripped out" and all.
Total = 4

Skatepunk
[ ] You own/ed a skateboard.
[x ] You have been skateboarding since you were in grade school.
[ ] You have gotten many injuries from skateboarding.
[x ] You know that World Industries and Element aren't just clothing lines.
[x] You have vandalized public property.
[ x] You have TPed/egged somebody's house before.
[x] You have been yelled at for loitering.
[x] You have gotten in trouble with the cops.
[x] You listen to punk rock.
[ ] Chicks on skateboards are hot.
[x] You stick it to the man. \
[x ] You own skater shoes.
[x] You watch MTV2, not MTV.
[x] You enjoy crude humor.
[x] Screw school, lets do crazy stuff.
[x] You know that there are other pro skaters out there besides Tony Hawk.
[ ] You pretty much live at the skate park.
[] Hygiene does not concern you.
[X] Skater boys are attractive.
Total = 14

Metalhead
[] Most people are scared of your music.
[] A lot of the bands you like have violent names/titles/lyrics.
[x ] You hate emo kids.
[ ] You have gotten kicked out of a public place multiple times before.
[x ] Slipknot isn't really metal.
[x ] You appreciate really good guitarists of any genre, particularly flamenco.
[x] You hate pop and rap.
[] You spend all your money on music-related stuff.
[ ] Scene kids are fun to laugh at.
[x ] You will become friends with anyone if they like the same bands.
[x] You curse a lot.
[x ] You can name at least five sub genres of metal.
[x] You wore black converses before they became emo.
[ ] At least one of your favorite bands thinks they're Vikings.
[x ] You also like classic rock, such as Led Zeppelin and Pink Floyd.
[] You have yelled at someone for their taste in music.
Total = 9


WOW According to this, I am a skatepunk! Who would've thought?

I am sure you can all relate to this story. I couldn't sleep and I was looking through some old photographs. I found pictures of me and my first boyfriend. We broke up because we were planning on coming out together at Prom and he chicken out and went with a girl instead then wanted to meet up with me for sex afterwards. PIG! At that time, he made me feel so undesirable and so unattractive. I didn't like myself much to begin with and that really did not help. I came across this song today and I think it sums up how I felt perfectly.

Mexican Wrestler [link]
by Jill Sobule


Sometimes I wish that I was an angel
A fallen angel who visits your dreams
And in those dreams I'd blow you a message that says
You really want me

Sometimes I wish that I was a wrestler
A Mexican wrestler in a red vinyl mask
And I might grab you, body slam you, and maybe cause
physical harm
But when we would land
I might take pity on you
I can crack all your ribs
But I can't break your heart

You will never love me
And this I can't forgive
That you will never love me
As long as I will live

Sometimes I wish that I was a beauty
A beautiful girl who was still 21
And I'd turn your head as well as your buddies
And I could afford to play hard to get
We'd go to parties and you'd show me off
And I'd go home with someone else

You will never love me
And this I can't forgive
And it will always bug me
As long as I will live
You will never love me
Why should I even care
It's not that you're so special
You're just the cross I bear
You will never love me

Directions: Put an 'x' into each box that is true. Then count your total number of x's marked. Put that number into the total section. Check your number in the answers portion to get your results.

[] - You like mice.
[ ] - Dust scares you.
[] - Your mother had more than 2 children.
[ ] - You are a smoker.
[ ] - You drink a lot.
[x] - You like to write.
[ x] - You are religious.
[] - You like to burn candles.
[ ] - You prefer juice or water over soda.
[x] - You have ridden a horse.

TOTAL SO FAR = 3

[] - You have done drugs.
[ ] - You are currently a drug addict.
[x] - You are very artistic.
[] - You like stuffed animals.
[x] - You are attracted to shiny things.
[x ] - You have eaten a bug before.
[ x] - You love cars.
[ ] - Cats are your favorite animal.
[ x] - You hate animals.
[x] - You are spontaneous and random.

TOTAL SO FAR = 9

[x] - You like fruit a lot.
[x] - You drive.
[ x] - You make / made good grades in school.
[x] - You are going / are in / have been to college.
[] - You like for things to be very clean.
[x ] - You are very messy.
[x] - You love to eat.
[ x] - Christmas is your favorite holiday.
[ ] - You like the beach.
[] - You hate the color pink.

TOTAL SO FAR = 16

[x] - You wear glasses or contacts.
[x ] - You chat online a lot.
[x] - You always use correct grammar.
[x] - You like to take quizzes.
[ x] - You eat out at restaurants more than you eat at home.
[] - You enjoy swimming.
[ ] - You have more than 5 pets.
[ ] - You have more than 10 pets.
[x] - You believe in ghosts.
[x] - You have seen a ghost.

TOTAL SO FAR = 23

[x] - You prefer comedy movies over romance movies.
[x] - You like dancing, either doing it yourself or watching.
[x ] - You have been to a strip club.
[ ] - You drink coffee in the morning.
[ x] - You like to be awake at night.
[] - You don't go outside often.
[x] - You love to read.
[x] - You believe in an afterlife of some kind.
[x ] - You have short hair.
[ x] - You know how to cook well.

GRAND TOTAL = 30

Answers

0 - 1 = Mosquito.
2 - 3 = A weed.
4 - 5 = Daisy.
6 - 7 = Janitor.
8 - 9 = Goose.
10 - 11 = Rock.
12 - 13 = Fireman.
14 - 15 = Rose.
16 - 17 = Mouse.
18 - 19 = Cow.
20 - 21 = Rabbit.
22 - 23 = Mental Patient.
24 - 25 = Grass.
26 - 27 = Water.
28 - 29 = Bat.
30 - 31 = Hippo.
32 - 33 = Crocodile.
34 - 35 = Vampire.
36 - 37 = Horse.
38 - 39 = Hawk.
40 - 41 = Spider
42 - 43 = Flea.
44 - 45 = Princess or Prince.
46 - 47 = President.
48 - 50 = You have done everything. Your lives have run out.

I am coming back as a hippo. So I am going to be an ornery fat ass with an attitude, what is different from this life?